Last Pregnancy...

And poof… just like that.. the bump is gone, the babes are here, and I’ll never ever grow another little life. The baby-making-chapter is officially closed.

I pulled out my tripod and big camera about a week before I had the twins, and I am so glad I thought to do that. I kept telling my husband every night, climbing into bed, “I’m not sure how many more weeks I can go… I don’t think I can make it to 40 weeks…I think it’s happening soon…” Intuition. Experience. I just KNEW. It was coming. And sure enough it did! The following week I had my babies.

These are gritty, and grainy, fuzzy and raw. I absolutely loved pregnancy. I love finding out I am expecting, and carrying that little secret with me throughout the days until I share it with a single person. I never got sick, just had a little nausea, but even that was a reminder that exciting things were happening, a person was growing…and I never minded that. The heartburn was uncomfortable, sure, but rubbing my belly and feeling a tiny little butt was a soothing nightly ritual that I just thought of the other night while nursing. I gave my babe a pat and a circular rub across their jammied bottom when I thought about how I had done that when they were inside. I thought it might be comforting to him to feel that same tender massage now that he is in the big open world, out of his tight little nestled spot. We ended up falling asleep together with him tucked into a little ball on my chest.

I have so much to be thankful for, and have praise for God for allowing me to be a mother. I am very grateful for the responsibility and experiences of carrying a child and bringing them into the world. Pregnancy was just a magical, unforgettable ride, I will always hold close as one of the best experiences of my life. Thank you to my husband for blessing me with your children and being so present and so involved and supportive. I am so in love with my family and am so incredibly happy that I left that time and space open to heal and be receptive to the chance of a third, which ended up being a third and a fourth.

I got a little weepy editing these images… it’s just so hard to close that chapter. I am definitely not wanting any more babies, totally settled and content with my family and finally see it as complete, but man oh man, to be pregnant and deliver a healthy baby…there is no greater gift. Thank you, Lord.

…Glo